they are the 2 jap students who came to my hse to stay frm sat 2.30 pm to today 10am. it was very difficult to communicate with them cause they noe very little eng so i had to use body lang and some humor most of the time but stil it was a interesting experience. the bad news is that the 2 ezlink cards that we lend to them to use during their homestay is stil wif them and they leaving tonite for japan....will we be able to get them back in time?? or wil it be my turn to go to their homes in japan for homestay so as to get back the cards? stay tune to find out....

forgot to mention someting that is goin to happen at my hse. i m goin to host 2 jap students at my hse today. this is no joke...pinch urself if u tink u r half-dreaming. i alrdy pinched myself. on thur nite my frien suddenly ask me whether i wan to host 2 jap students frm sat to mon. it was a totally random qn but i couldnt say no cause i nvr did this bfore and it seems like an interesting experience. thats the gd news but the bad news is most of the jap girls are taken...no kawaii girls. only kawaii guys yucks! but stil it sounds fun and now i hve to plan activities for them during their homestay at my hse. hopefully i can post a pic of them here.

the last post was suppose to be my last but i tink theres no harm writing jus one more post haha. yesterday i was out almost the whole day from 9 am to 12.30 am. first i wen cycling wif jy to find bicycle shops near his hse cause he wans to build this recumbent bic and he is lookin for materials to build his dream bic. we cycled frm around yishun town sec sch and cycle pass chong pang army base, my cousin hse, ajc, amk lib, bishan park, bishan mrt and ended at near junction 8. i m really impressed with myself cause i nvr cycled so much bfore but i stil managed to do it. then frm there we cycle pass rjc, long hse, lower seletar reservoir, chong pang army base and back to his hse. though it was tiring but seriously it was also damn fun and you shld try it if u can. if possible, i wil oso wan to try night cycling too. after cycling it was alrdy 5.30 pm and later was class outing and we were goin to hve steamboat buffet! reach novena mrt at 7pm but the guys were late. after lejun and bernard came, aa was stil late...seriously guys u mus try to change this bad habit if not how to woo girls nxt time. after aa came, we wen to the steamboat place and it was crowded wif pple. i dun noe what happen to aa but he suddenly disappeared?! then we found out that he was at tan tock seng hospital..........cafe.
wen he came back, he looked very emo. i jus hope he is ok cause he did not look his normal self. after dinner i reached home at ard 11pm. thought i was goin to slp soon but then my father received a call. dun worry it was jus my sis calling frm her prom which has jus ended at the ritz carlton hotel. i tink my father mus hve thought i was crazy cause i ask to tag along wif him to fetch my sis but actually i jus wasnt sleepy yet. so this is how i wen out the whole day frm 9am to 12.30 am. i feel like doin it again...haha

tink this may be my last post since i wan to spend more time doin other tings that i want to do like starting a business. i ve always wanted to start a business since sec 2 and now i finally got the chance and time to do it and i m not goin to lose this chance anymore. its only the day after prom but i ve alrdy started workin on my idea and i believe that it might jus work. had prom last nite and it was abit disappointin cause it failed to live up to my expectations. it was supposed to be dinner and dance but where was the dance...and the organisers drag the prom too long alrdy and make everybody v tired. so jc life has jus ended but my new life has jus started and now i m goin to do what i wan to do bfore i go ns. to be continued.....

fuck. sry but cant help it. did the worst econs essay today. i was talkin gibberish and i knew i made no sense but i jus couldnt tink of anyting else to write. ahhhh mus tell myself not to give up yet

great speech by JFK and what he says is so true. he is the kind of pple we really nid rite now. wonder if obama is able to step into the shoes of JFK?

i m lucky to be loved

life is such a drag now...everyday is the same ting...wake up, study, slp. how much more boring can it get? i hope this wil end soon and as i m writing now, i m hvin a writing mental block. i tink its cause i hvent pay as much attention to gp as i hve to maths and chem thats why i cant seem to tink of words to fit into the sentence that i m writing...and thats why i m tryin very hard(but failin terribly) to blog faithfully everyday so that i wont lose touch wif gp. been surfin alot of the net lately after muggin and i found many cool websites such as http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/0,28757,1809858,00.html. this is time website and they actually selected the top 50 websites of 08 and there are many cool websites in their selection. i cant tink of any rite now but u shld check it out when u r free. plus they hve the top 10 songs of 07 ...i didnt realise that the net contain so much stuff until i started surfing seriously. its much cooler than i thought. hope to uncover some more gems over the nxt few remaining days.

i tink i shld reflect on my jc life so that i noe where i can improve and where i can pat myself on the back and say well done! honestly i feel that i have more tings to regret than more tings to be happy about. let start with the bad tings before we move to the better tings. there are a few tings that i regret doin if i tink carefully and one of them is joining soccer. dun be mistaken but i m lucky to have met some great soccer pple such as sahmadi, daniel, zad, arif and co but the sad truth is soccer has wasted my 2 yrs of jc life. lookin back, there is noting worth remembering about our soccer except the first day of my training. that day instead of the usual training, the coach first let us watched this inspiring movie called 'remember the titans' and it was about how this great coach united this racially divided team and turned them into match winners. the movie was so nice that i wen to download e movie immediately after i reached home from training and i honestly thought it was the start of great tings to come...alas i was bitterly disappointed when it did not materialize. actually it is very simple to succeed in jc soccer...u jus nid to train ur fitness and skills very hard and u mus be very determined. these are very simple qualities yet it was sorely lacking in our team and worse our coach and our captain wasnt strong enough to enforce such a training so it was only normal that our fitness and skills were substandard. as a result during our first season we were trashed game after game by other jcs and i can stil rmber lookin at our team being outclassed and yet being totally helpless. it was a disguisting, excruciating, humiliating feeling-one that i dun tink i wil ever forget. i rmber when the season ended, i vowed to improve my fitness and my skills and to overhaul the soccer system even if i was jus a member. i seriously thought i could do at least someting so that we wont end up like the seniors-bottom of our grp. and we did our seniors proud by doing even better than them....we ended up bottom of our grp, without a win, without a goal, and without any dignity. can you imagine goin into every match knowing u will surely lose because you never keep to ur promise of training harder and stil havin to watch the entire match? it was painful... i tink i hve ranted long enough so moral of story is to consider a cca carefully before joinin it cause i dun wan history to repeat again..

so sch ended 4 days ago and what a way to end...drinkin beer, talkin and playin cards at william chua hse. but i wish it did not end this way cause it only makes me wan to hve more fun! the nxt morning after the outing, i felt like having another round of beer and another round of bridge...honestly the class outing was quite fun..maybe even more fun than the sentosa outing where we played beach volleyball. so i m lookin forward to the nxt class outing but maybe this time we can hve it at my place because there is swimming pool, tennis court, bbq pit and even a gym for those who wan to flex their muscles infront of the girls...like me haha. the reason why i did not tink it was a gd idea to spend the last day at chua hse is because i did not feel like it was a proper closure to our jc life. i guess i was influenced by my sis hci graduation ceremony. i like her ceremony because it was an intimate affair with only the jc2 students and their parents and not like ours where they cramped all of us together includin the jc 1 whom i believe mus hve dreaded the ceremony tremendously. honestly i did not like anyting abt our ceremony except the videos because there was nothing likeable abt it! it was cramped, the ceremony did not feel like a graduation ceremony( who would put a indian dance in a graduation ceremony?!!) and to sum it up, it jus did not feel like a graduation ceremony. in hci ceremony, bfore the bear presentation, evry class will play their class video which is abt their jc life on the audi screen. then each class wil walk onto the stage and each person will receive a teddy bear from his form teacher. it was a simple ceremony but it felt like a proper ending to our jc life...jus like how every good drama needs a happy ending to leave the audience satisfied. but its no use grumbling abt such stuff now cause its goin to be all over soon. though our graduation ceremony may be considered a disaster but i hope our prom wil be much better...and maybe i might pull off someting audacious...someting that i nvr even dare to tink bfore until now..


to all my diehard fans, here is what u all hve been waiting for...the holy grail! this pic is the present that i gave to her as her bdae present. it was no easy task...i had to eat 3 ferror roche and learn how to make a ferror roche rose from scratch! everyting was hand made and designed by me! not bad for someone who is makin his first present for her rite? and all the best for ur alvls if u r takin it this yr

cant give in yet. been muggin hard for the last couple days and its been really exhausting but i cant lose steam..not when i can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel. anyway her bdae is coming soon and i ve also been busy preparing her present. cant tink of anyting to buy so i jus bought what i tink shld be ok( eh i wont disclose the present in case she is secretly checkin my blog...). at first i thought of buyin teddy bear or some toy since i tink all girls like soft toys and i always see guys buyin them for their girlfriens but i tink they are too common( and i m also broke..). nxt was to buy the wrapper and some ferrero roche to complement the present. it was difficult to decide how to design her present since i hve never make a present bfore but after much thought, i tink i may hve gotten it. normally guys are not gd at preparing presents so i was tempted to ask my mom to help me prepare it since she look so free today and i so busy wif my muggin but i guess i wan to make this gift special especially since this is the first time i am makin a gift for someone so i decided to do it myself. i am hopin to pass the gift to her myself but i dun noe whether i shld so maybe i wil jus pass it to her friens...
if you r eager to see the present, dun worry i wil upload it after i pass her the present and if you happen to be a guy who cant decide on a present for her then jus read my dummies guide to winning your girl's heart. haha

got back mock test last yr a lvl maths paper 2. was quite surprised and happy to see that i got 76 for it which is an A!! dun tink i ve gotten an A bfore for maths..maybe the only time was for my maths retest but this time i got an A! if only the paper was this yr a lvl maths paper then i tink i wil be so happy then i wil kiss anybody that i meet on the street haha. but stil this is a very encouraging sign and it can only help to make me ever more determined to get A for my maths! wonder how the rest did cause i pon sch today. honestly goin sch now is a waste of time...maybe for me only cause the lectures dun really help much and tutorial is equally bad. worse i cant stand the thought of goin for maths tutorial...i dun wan to become like andy quek.

the last few days i only come online after 11 cause i wan to talk to her and now then i realised she come online so late. i stil rmber how we started our first conversation...she wrote i dun noe why but i dun feel like goin sch tmr on her msn nick and i wrote but there gp lect tmr on my nick haha. cant believe i did that but i m real glad i did cause later she ask me whether i m talkin to her nick...so thats how it started..now the challenge is to tink of stuff to talk abt but i tink i shld be able to handle that or maybe not...

it gd cause i can get to see you but its bad cause i stil wan to see you after 5 days!

woah its been a while since i last blogged but i guess i hve been really busy muggin. plan to continue muggin until late into the night but i guess i nid a break. the pressure is really starting to build up especially from parents as they wan me to do well but i dun blame them cause i myself also wan to do well. the sad thing is my prelim results have not been encouraging and they have only made my parents more worried. from U to A in 33 days starting from today...is it possible? well it damn well better be cause i wan to do good enough to be able to choose where i wan to go. been thinking how hard i shld mug? cause if muggin 24/7 can guarantee me As then i m totally willing to do it but i dun noe whether i dare to try...i wil hve to make my decision fast cause theres no much time left. this is goin to be a lonely battle but this is my last chance to change my so-called life. its NOW OR NEVER!

Woohoo! i finally did it! i finally overcame my inhibitions and joined my first p6 class reunion after 6 long years in the wilderness since sec 1. surprisingly nobody has changed much and all of them say i changed the most...i tink what they mean is that i hve become more shuai haha. its gd to see them again, even though only 12 turn up out of the 44, because i tink we did hve a great time together during p6. so we went clark quarke and ate at the fishermen wharf then we went pool at dohby gauht. actually there was noting to be shy about in attendin this p6 reunion and i tink i was tinkin too much in the past and that was why i never dared to join the reunion until now. but i am happy that i finally overcame my fears and i nid not hide my pri sch past anymore. i wish my sis also came because she, like me, has also not seen them since sec 1 but sadly she got yoga... anyway the nxt step is to visit my pri sch and teachers again cause again i hve not seen them since sec 1 and i tink i owe much of what i hve today to their efforts and dedications. i look forward to meetin mrs codeiro, mr peh, mdm rosiah and more!

anyway those who wan to see how much i hve changed or how shuai i hve become, can take a look at this pic that we took.

received a msg today. ur mus be tinkin that she sen me another msg again rite...i wish so too but sadly its not. it is from my pri sch classmate and i was surprised.

hello!
we're having a 6S dinner gathering this friday 26/9 cuz shuhao is back in singapore and leaving soon again and it'll be good time to catch up with everybody!
we're meeting at 6.30pm at clarkequay mrt, eating at some place called fisherman's wharf haha
yep hope to see yall there and help me spread the message cuz i dun have everyone's contact
thanks!

james


i was stunned! cause since graduation, we hve nvr kept in contact again and all of a sudden, out of the blue, we are suddenly hvin this dinner reunion. the problem is i dun noe whether i wan to attend this dinner cause its been so long since we last saw each other and it wil be like meeting strangers...worse still is my relationship wif my ex pri sch classmates ,who are in ajc now, has deteriorated and i dun understand why. i did not wan this to happen yet somehow it happened and now the situation is bad. i guess its largely my fault but i dun noe how to make it up to them...and i jus wish we can like know each other once more again. so it wil be very awkward if i were to attend this dinner...maybe i shldnt tink too much but maybe i shld be studyin...we shall c how

does bloggin really help me improve my gp?? if not then i dun tink i shld continue bloggin since it will be wastin my time which i alrdy dun hve enough of...prelim results has been really bad. jus confirmed that my chem got S and my only hope left is gp and bio. ahhhhhhh i really dun wan to do badly for prelim cause it will only send my stress lvl skyrocketing before alvl. sometimes i tink i m not cut for my various subjects such as maths and chem cause i noe i got put in effort during the sept hols for these subjects yet my efforts seem to be futile. sighn...what does it take to do well for alvl if effort is not enough...there is so many tings racing through my head right now that i cant put them in words. my class girls seem to be doin jus fine for prelims especially pple like sabrina, pei zhi, leong min, angelin and etc. i cannot stop wondering how they are able to do well consistently for exams. zzzzzz

received a msg on sat. i kinda expected it but i was hopin for a miracle-a miracle that i could not stop tinkin abt even when watchin wall.e on fri. alas it was not to be and i was brought crashin down to earth from heaven where miracles happen...i tink i was kinda disappointed cause i thought she would give it a try but i guess it was jus wishful tinkin on my part. so now i dun noe what i shld do...continue to email her or jus ignore her since she alrdy stated it clearly. but one ting is for sure, i wont stop tryin but i wil try to leave it aside for now cause i stil got one unfinished business left. although i got so much that i wan to tell her, i tink this song kinda explain evrytin that i wan to tell her and it is aptly named 'with or without you' by U2. anyway if somehow u r readin this post, i wan to wish u all the best for ur a lvls.




so today is the last day of slackin for me. i dread the start of tmr when i hve to start muggin all over again for a lvls and i wonder if i can survive the period before and durin the a lvls cause i cant seem to find anytin to do to help me take my mind off muggin after muggin( sounds strange...). in the past i depend on fm07 but it was too addicitive. now i m tryin this new anime called neon genesis evangelion( cool name!) and i hope i wont grow tired of it too quickly cause i nvr seem to be able to finish anytin that i watch. i nvr finish slam dunk, heroes, D. gray man, friends(wif my sis), my so-called life, prison break, and much more i tink...i tink my patience is the one that is stoppin me from completin this series and the problem is i dun hve much of it! but i tink this is jus a small problem compared to the earlier one i mentioned above...man u versus chelsea tonite! hoping for a gd match.

18.9.08
11.25pm

i did everyting i could. now everything is left in her hands.

hey happy birthday bernard if you r readin this post...today is bernard's bdae but i dun tink he has grown any taller..haha. cant really tink of anyting to write today...though there is officially 55 days left to a lvls excludin today but i dun feel like muggin yet..guess i m stil sufferin from post-prelims hangover. cant wait to get back my other prelim results especially my compo cause the guys told me tat i got 35 out of 50 but i dun wan to get overexcited yet in case it isnt really like that. my chem is most likely doomed cause my paper 3 is poor and so is my paper 1 and i dun tink my paper 2 can help me much. i tink chem is one of my toughest subject cause there is so much random tings to rmber especially organic chem and the later topics like chemical periodicity. mus really find a way to do sometin abt it cause my goal is to get a for chem for a lvls. as for the other subjects, i cant really discuss much abt them now cause i hvent got back any except econs paper 1 qn 4. tmr theres gp tutorial and i fervently hope that mr ang will return us our compo. honestly if i do well for compo, its mainly because of my gp tuition which taught me alot of relevant skills like the structure of a compo and aq whereas our sch is jus throwin facts at us. like today durin gp lecture, adrian bell was jus zoomin through the 12 qns at one go and most of what he said were actually repeated from the notes our teachers gave us..it was a complete waste of 1 and a half hours. however mr ang lesson is actually quite enjoyable cause he shows us alot of tings and he is also quite funny but if u really wan to do well for gp then u r really on ur own cause aj cant help u much. one ting u can do is to start a blog like me so that u can practise ur writin evryday. though i dun noe how much this can help but its stil worth a try...

wat a long and tiring 2 days! first was beach volley at sentosa, then it was the start of post-prelim life...

yesterday the class had outing at sentosa silso beach where we played beach volleyball and only beach volleyball. actually there were alot of other tings to do like the luge, cycling but they were really expensive like the bike cost $8 per hr...so we jus stick to beach volleyball. arrived at 10 and played until 4 plus. the weather was perfect, in fact too perfect and the sun kept shining on us mercilessly and wat do u get when u play beach volleyball from 10 to 4 under the hot sun? u get a cooked lobster..thats wat the class call it and now i m a cooked lobster. but honestly beach volleyball is fun and i will wan to do it again when i m free. i like the feeling of saving a shot that looks like it is goin to land on the floor and it feels good. doin a jump-serve also feels good because the jump-serve is a really beautiful serve. but i tink i prefer beach volleyball to volleyball because in beach volleyball u will not be afraid of tryin to save a shot because theres the sand to cushion ur fall but in volleyball u wil land on the hard court. during lunch i bought a can of tiger beer while the others bought soft drinks and they were shocked when they saw the beer though i dun tink it is a big deal cause i m alrdy 18 and beer and beach goes well together..dun you tink? another reason why i like to play beach volleyball at the beach is because u can get to see babes..haha. i m not jokin cause there r really babes at the beach and the guys keep jokin abt hittin the ball close to a babe though no one really did it....honestly yesterdays class outin is alot more fun than jus eatin together like the last class outin and i hope we can do this more often.

the next day we got back some of our papers, more specifically chem paper 1 and 3. didnt really do well but i wasnt upset cause now i noe where i wen wrong so i can stil improve bfore the a lvls. right now there isnt really any time to breathe cause everything is happening very fast..prelims, gettin back prelim results, muggin then a lvls. wish time could pass slowly so that we can all take a breather and jus enjoy jc life. but i oso look forward to the end of a lvls cause thats when i m flyin off to vietnam..woohoo!