Woohoo! i finally did it! i finally overcame my inhibitions and joined my first p6 class reunion after 6 long years in the wilderness since sec 1. surprisingly nobody has changed much and all of them say i changed the most...i tink what they mean is that i hve become more shuai haha. its gd to see them again, even though only 12 turn up out of the 44, because i tink we did hve a great time together during p6. so we went clark quarke and ate at the fishermen wharf then we went pool at dohby gauht. actually there was noting to be shy about in attendin this p6 reunion and i tink i was tinkin too much in the past and that was why i never dared to join the reunion until now. but i am happy that i finally overcame my fears and i nid not hide my pri sch past anymore. i wish my sis also came because she, like me, has also not seen them since sec 1 but sadly she got yoga... anyway the nxt step is to visit my pri sch and teachers again cause again i hve not seen them since sec 1 and i tink i owe much of what i hve today to their efforts and dedications. i look forward to meetin mrs codeiro, mr peh, mdm rosiah and more!

anyway those who wan to see how much i hve changed or how shuai i hve become, can take a look at this pic that we took.

received a msg today. ur mus be tinkin that she sen me another msg again rite...i wish so too but sadly its not. it is from my pri sch classmate and i was surprised.

hello!
we're having a 6S dinner gathering this friday 26/9 cuz shuhao is back in singapore and leaving soon again and it'll be good time to catch up with everybody!
we're meeting at 6.30pm at clarkequay mrt, eating at some place called fisherman's wharf haha
yep hope to see yall there and help me spread the message cuz i dun have everyone's contact
thanks!

james


i was stunned! cause since graduation, we hve nvr kept in contact again and all of a sudden, out of the blue, we are suddenly hvin this dinner reunion. the problem is i dun noe whether i wan to attend this dinner cause its been so long since we last saw each other and it wil be like meeting strangers...worse still is my relationship wif my ex pri sch classmates ,who are in ajc now, has deteriorated and i dun understand why. i did not wan this to happen yet somehow it happened and now the situation is bad. i guess its largely my fault but i dun noe how to make it up to them...and i jus wish we can like know each other once more again. so it wil be very awkward if i were to attend this dinner...maybe i shldnt tink too much but maybe i shld be studyin...we shall c how

does bloggin really help me improve my gp?? if not then i dun tink i shld continue bloggin since it will be wastin my time which i alrdy dun hve enough of...prelim results has been really bad. jus confirmed that my chem got S and my only hope left is gp and bio. ahhhhhhh i really dun wan to do badly for prelim cause it will only send my stress lvl skyrocketing before alvl. sometimes i tink i m not cut for my various subjects such as maths and chem cause i noe i got put in effort during the sept hols for these subjects yet my efforts seem to be futile. sighn...what does it take to do well for alvl if effort is not enough...there is so many tings racing through my head right now that i cant put them in words. my class girls seem to be doin jus fine for prelims especially pple like sabrina, pei zhi, leong min, angelin and etc. i cannot stop wondering how they are able to do well consistently for exams. zzzzzz

received a msg on sat. i kinda expected it but i was hopin for a miracle-a miracle that i could not stop tinkin abt even when watchin wall.e on fri. alas it was not to be and i was brought crashin down to earth from heaven where miracles happen...i tink i was kinda disappointed cause i thought she would give it a try but i guess it was jus wishful tinkin on my part. so now i dun noe what i shld do...continue to email her or jus ignore her since she alrdy stated it clearly. but one ting is for sure, i wont stop tryin but i wil try to leave it aside for now cause i stil got one unfinished business left. although i got so much that i wan to tell her, i tink this song kinda explain evrytin that i wan to tell her and it is aptly named 'with or without you' by U2. anyway if somehow u r readin this post, i wan to wish u all the best for ur a lvls.




so today is the last day of slackin for me. i dread the start of tmr when i hve to start muggin all over again for a lvls and i wonder if i can survive the period before and durin the a lvls cause i cant seem to find anytin to do to help me take my mind off muggin after muggin( sounds strange...). in the past i depend on fm07 but it was too addicitive. now i m tryin this new anime called neon genesis evangelion( cool name!) and i hope i wont grow tired of it too quickly cause i nvr seem to be able to finish anytin that i watch. i nvr finish slam dunk, heroes, D. gray man, friends(wif my sis), my so-called life, prison break, and much more i tink...i tink my patience is the one that is stoppin me from completin this series and the problem is i dun hve much of it! but i tink this is jus a small problem compared to the earlier one i mentioned above...man u versus chelsea tonite! hoping for a gd match.

18.9.08
11.25pm

i did everyting i could. now everything is left in her hands.

hey happy birthday bernard if you r readin this post...today is bernard's bdae but i dun tink he has grown any taller..haha. cant really tink of anyting to write today...though there is officially 55 days left to a lvls excludin today but i dun feel like muggin yet..guess i m stil sufferin from post-prelims hangover. cant wait to get back my other prelim results especially my compo cause the guys told me tat i got 35 out of 50 but i dun wan to get overexcited yet in case it isnt really like that. my chem is most likely doomed cause my paper 3 is poor and so is my paper 1 and i dun tink my paper 2 can help me much. i tink chem is one of my toughest subject cause there is so much random tings to rmber especially organic chem and the later topics like chemical periodicity. mus really find a way to do sometin abt it cause my goal is to get a for chem for a lvls. as for the other subjects, i cant really discuss much abt them now cause i hvent got back any except econs paper 1 qn 4. tmr theres gp tutorial and i fervently hope that mr ang will return us our compo. honestly if i do well for compo, its mainly because of my gp tuition which taught me alot of relevant skills like the structure of a compo and aq whereas our sch is jus throwin facts at us. like today durin gp lecture, adrian bell was jus zoomin through the 12 qns at one go and most of what he said were actually repeated from the notes our teachers gave us..it was a complete waste of 1 and a half hours. however mr ang lesson is actually quite enjoyable cause he shows us alot of tings and he is also quite funny but if u really wan to do well for gp then u r really on ur own cause aj cant help u much. one ting u can do is to start a blog like me so that u can practise ur writin evryday. though i dun noe how much this can help but its stil worth a try...

wat a long and tiring 2 days! first was beach volley at sentosa, then it was the start of post-prelim life...

yesterday the class had outing at sentosa silso beach where we played beach volleyball and only beach volleyball. actually there were alot of other tings to do like the luge, cycling but they were really expensive like the bike cost $8 per hr...so we jus stick to beach volleyball. arrived at 10 and played until 4 plus. the weather was perfect, in fact too perfect and the sun kept shining on us mercilessly and wat do u get when u play beach volleyball from 10 to 4 under the hot sun? u get a cooked lobster..thats wat the class call it and now i m a cooked lobster. but honestly beach volleyball is fun and i will wan to do it again when i m free. i like the feeling of saving a shot that looks like it is goin to land on the floor and it feels good. doin a jump-serve also feels good because the jump-serve is a really beautiful serve. but i tink i prefer beach volleyball to volleyball because in beach volleyball u will not be afraid of tryin to save a shot because theres the sand to cushion ur fall but in volleyball u wil land on the hard court. during lunch i bought a can of tiger beer while the others bought soft drinks and they were shocked when they saw the beer though i dun tink it is a big deal cause i m alrdy 18 and beer and beach goes well together..dun you tink? another reason why i like to play beach volleyball at the beach is because u can get to see babes..haha. i m not jokin cause there r really babes at the beach and the guys keep jokin abt hittin the ball close to a babe though no one really did it....honestly yesterdays class outin is alot more fun than jus eatin together like the last class outin and i hope we can do this more often.

the next day we got back some of our papers, more specifically chem paper 1 and 3. didnt really do well but i wasnt upset cause now i noe where i wen wrong so i can stil improve bfore the a lvls. right now there isnt really any time to breathe cause everything is happening very fast..prelims, gettin back prelim results, muggin then a lvls. wish time could pass slowly so that we can all take a breather and jus enjoy jc life. but i oso look forward to the end of a lvls cause thats when i m flyin off to vietnam..woohoo!

woohoo my very own replica ray ban aviator sunglass! it simply means i got a VERY COOL sunglass!





even my mom looks like a superstar!

its finally over! yes prelims is finally over if that stil hasnt registered in ur head. its more of a sigh of relief than ecstasy because the big one is stil coming..but it stil feels gd now that it is finally over. the weird ting was after our last paper it did not feel like prelims was over and it seemed as though we were goin to hve another paper the nxt day...my head was stil hurting. i guess it took some time before we could comprehend how wonderful it is that prelims is finally over. the good news is we hve one day of break, which is our class outing!, but the bad news is that there is only 1 day of break cause thurs we hve to go back sch. but we r much luckier than the physics pple who do not hve any break at all. jus came back frm pool and ntuc shoppin wif the guys and it was damn tiring! i dun noe how the other guys can play pool for so long...guess i m better at soccer than pool. at ntuc the guys did some funny tings and there are pics at the class blog. heres two as a preview





hopefully tmr class outin will be fun! and pray hard for gd weather cause i dun wan it to rain...




tryin to noe somebody can be so hard. today after prelims and even durin the chem exam, i was tinkin of askin her out for lunch or someting like tat but i guess i m a coward. i jus wan to noe her and we could start as friends first. i could hve also ask her out tmr but tmr got class outin so i jus lost all my chances. i hope she is not avoidin me cause i dun tink i was aggressive...i only sen her emails...is that aggressive? the one ting i like abt her is that she exudes class. she looks elegant. even my female cousin say she would woo her if she was a guy...that says it all! this is drainin my brain power even more than my prelims...there r so many tings to decide, so many questions to ask urself, so many comments frm everyone....i cant believe one person can give me so much troubles...

ok so left last paper! 2 more days of hell and agony and it wil all be over at least momentarily...today was maths paper 2 and bio paper 1 and 2. maths was tough i tink but i wont go and tink abt it. after maths was hell! 2 and half hours of pure bio muggin and memorising. spend the time in 411 wif robin and shao cong talkin cock and tryin to stuff everyting into my brain. its a pity i dun hve a photographic memory like robin who claims he has cause that will help me like crazy. equally wonderful will be if i have telepathy wif my sis then during exam i can copy what she is tinkin and i can shake my leg while she do all the tinking..haha but sadly she does not take bio. the worse ting was i spend most of the time and most of my brain cells memorising glycolysis and it did not come out in the test! i hate wen that kind of ting happen because tryin to memorise someting like bio can make ur head explode and if it does not come out during the test then ur head will really explode! that was how i felt when i was during the bio essay cause there was not a single ting tested on glycolysis and i wasnt sure how to do essay part (a) but i crap my way through and i should get at least 3 marks out of 12...but after bio ended, my head felt like a cloud! it felt so light that i tink i can start chem paper 1 and paper 2 right after bio! of course i m jus exaggerating but i like the feeling after completin an exam. it is this feelin that allows me to write this post because i feel so relaxed right now unlike the previous days when i did not touch my blog cause my head felt so bloated wif useless stuff...dread the start of tmr wen i hve to start muggin but i noe it will be over pretty soon. wonder whether i shld sen her an email???

<3 love this song! makes me relax, high, happy all at the same time!

watched the diving bell and the butterfly. it was a beautiful movie which would make you tink abt your life and how you should be spendin ur life. in case you dun noe, the movie is based on the memoir of the same name by Jean-Dominique Bauby. this guy was the editor of french fashion magazine Elle but in a cruel twist of fate, he was struck down by locked-in syndrome which i feel is the most horrific illness ever. the condition paralysed him except his left eyelid so that he could only communicate by blinking. the movie follows his days at the hospital and how he struggled to communicate with the outstide world. if u didnt watch the movie, you would be wondering how he communicate just by blinking? well there was this speech therapist who would read out a list of letters and if she said the right one then he would blink once. amazingly, this was how his book was formed-letter by letter, word by word. after watchin the movie, i could not help but wonder what if tat guy was me? although ur body is dead, ur mind is still alive but you cannot convey or express how you feel except through that system of communication. words is merely not enough to describe this agony. seriously this could happen to anyone because the guy was perfectly alright but he suddenly came down with this disease so it is kind of makin me worried. sadly there is no way to prevent this but lookin on the bright side, i realise i shld stop wastin my life and accomplish sometin. unluckily i watched this movie right in the middle of my prelims and the only ting i shld be accomplishin now is to do well for my prelims and alvls which can take such a long and painful time that i feel is jus as bad as locked-in syndrome. everyday u r forced to hole yourself up in a room to study and u dare not venture anywhere else so this sounds similiar to the syndrome...i tink i hve more than enough worries for now